A hodgepodge is what can least describe my state now. I might be thinking a thousand thoughts one moment and I might be totally blank in another. Friends, the attack on Gaza, white tiger of Arvind Agida, the slumdog, friends, the Mumbai attacks, my career, my job, friends, food, Ma, the stock market........ And then a sudden, deafening serenity. The overwhelming pace with which these feelings occur to me has not let me focus on anything at all. Meditation isn’t helping. Medication would be futile too. I wish I could exactly write my mind. Literally, every word of it without insisting on rhetoric and just implying what I think.